Distant Dreamer

I haven't written in a week, but there are good reasons:

I've been super busy relaxing, looking for jobs, sleeping in, and just breathing for a change.

Let me explain a little further. I lost my job last Wednesday and I couldn't be happier (yes, you read that right). I HATED what I was doing. I took a job under the impression that I would be doing marketing and as it turns out, it was nothing like marketing. I was working more as a project manager and servant to a specific person who shall go unmentioned because he isn't worth the energy of even discussing. (Karma is all I can say because I believe that one day he'll get what's coming to him).

I had this job for a year and it was a year too long. I have spent the last 12 months being utterly depressed over the fact that I was giving away 40 hours of my life to this company every week. Day in, day out. I wasn't happy and I should have been because 2009 was the year my husband came home, we moved into our new house, had lots of fun home improvement projects take place, etc... And although those things have been wonderful, a dark cloud was always looming over my life because of how I was spending the greater half of my day: stuck in a basement cubicle, doing something I hated doing, for a person I had zero respect for (who wasn't even my boss).

Now? A week later? I feel like a bag of bricks has been lifted off my chest. I can relax, I can breathe, and I have time now to explore future career opportunities that are a much better fit for me. I have 100% faith in the universe and I know this happened for a reason. I just know and feel that the right job is out there waiting for me to find it, and I will. And the best part about the whole thing? I was given a severance and I qualified for unemployment, so I'll actually make money while I look for something I want to do. How perfect is that? It was too hard to focus on finding a new job when I was working. But now, I have those eight hours back each day to put to good use (and I'll get my field project finished too, FINALLY!).

So yay for closing doors and having new ones open. I'm looking forward to this journey and I can already feel the difference the events of last week have made in my life. A good change :)

I'll close this post with the lyrics from a song by Duffy that I have been singing to myself over and over all week. Isn't it just so fitting that this song seems to be my theme song right now?! :)

Although you think I cope,

my head is filled with hope...

of some place other than here.

Although you think I smile,

inside all the while...

I'm wondering about my destiny.

I'm thinking about,

all the things,

I'd like to do in my life.

I'm a dreamer,

a distant dreamer,

dreaming for hope, from today.

Even when you see me frown,

my heart won't let me down,

because I know there's better things to come.

And when life gets tough,

I feel I've had enough,

I hold on to a distant star,

I'm thinking about,

all the things,

I'd like to do in my life...

I'm a dreamer,

A distant dreamer,

dreaming for hope from today.

I'm a dreamer,

A distant dreamer,

dreaming for hope from today.

Yeah, I'm a dreamer.

I'm a dreamer,

a distant dreamer,

dreaming for hope from today,

Yeah i'm a dreamer...

I'm a dreamer.